And We're Back

As some may have noticed, I've been off the air for a good bit (something to the tune of about six days). I've found it difficult (and that's putting it politely) to remain motivated with the rumblings of the new semester underfoot. Furthermore, I've been feeling overwhelmed and more than a little stressed out lately. While I understand that an awful lot of my discontent has been self created, it doesn't make turning off the "worry switch" any easier. However, this is not to say that things are not going well.

My mood has actually been generally upbeat as of late. Tonight has been a little down due to still organizing things and sorting things out some. But I'm feeling a lot more satisfied with where things are headed on lot of levels, even though I am still nagged from time to time with fears of failure and questions of capability. Mostly, I'm learning to shut these quasi-notions, false feelings, and self-questioning sessions down/out quickly and mercilessly. For too long I have felt the necessity to justify or qualify my motives or actions or agency, but I've realized (after much thought), that many of the attitudes toward life that I held in my early twenties, were actually more healthy and positive than I once gave them credit.

My academic, personal, professional, and social pursuits are all good things. I do a good job managing my time and must worry far less about the possibility of failure, discontentment, or mistakes. Life is in the living and there are more good opportunities and good chances than bad. Fear not the unknown.